Jacob Halloway : Lord of fools

(This is my first character post with Jacob. I had a hard time with putting his personality into writing, but I think I have it down.......)

When Randolph first embraced me, I was excited at the idea of the power I would posess. I was manipulative....and still am in a way. The problem is, I see now what this all is.....it's a game of chess, and right now, I am merely a Pawn. That is not enough for me...nor has it ever been and anyone who knows me will tell you the same.

From what I understand, members of the Ventrue clan gravitate to Invictus and it's old world customs, but me? I'm a businessman and I see no future with a group of egotistical bastards who like to stand above the rest of us and watch as we desperately try to rise above what is expected. I saw opportunity with Gabrielle and her movement partly due to her capability as a leader, and in part because the Shatter-proof glass ceiling that so-called first estate keeps above the younger kindred does not exist. I'm not saying that I yearn for Gabrielle's status or position, but I am not content with staying at the bottom. I've shown that in my mortal life, so why is it so far fetched for me to seek the same opportunity in my Requiem?

My coterie may mock me and think as little of me as they wish, but no ne of them has any sense...well, Crawford does, but he is rash and not just rough around the edges, but he is more serated, like a hack-saw and always suspicious of our motives. I suppose that comes from being a detective all of those years and to his credit, he is a good man....he is just......socially impaired. He thinks me a fool, that much is certain, but if he thinks he has me figured out, he has another thing coming. He doesn't like to listen to reason, and my reputation is just as much at risk as his....so with that said, the coterie is in need of new management. I will not sit by and let him succumb to his beast and become a threat physically, or even by association. That's all I need...is for him to lose who he is to his beast and become a dmaned revenant. I'm going to have to take a subtle approach with him....he's doesn't respond well to the up front approach......

As for the others, A.J. is a little too quick to draw his gun and fire off like a gunslinger of the wild west. I think he fancies himself a cowboy, and I don't fault him for it....some of us just never outgrow boyhood fantasies. He has potential though.....if I had his talent for inspiration....I would sure as hell use that talent to the best of my ability. However, he prefers to be up close and personal.....he can throw a punch, I'll give him that, but in our world, what fucking good is a rough and rowdy, gun waving redneck? None. He could go places if he would just pull his head out of his ass and be himself instead of acting foolish and trying to impress Crawford by being an ass to others. I suppose the correct term for someone like him is cockalorum......what can I say? the fool gets under my skin.....perhaps one day...he will lock gazes with me...and that will be when....nevermind....I'm getting ahead of myself.....

What can I say about Lisa? She's got her uses, and in all honesty, she has been an asset.....however, she constantly talks about how we shouldn't kill and how we should try and see the big picture, but in my opinion, she is the one who fails to see the big picture. She holds on to this idea that she is going to make us better people.....that's her failing. We are no longer people...we are inhuman creatures that pass as people....we feed from people....and we manipulate them for our own gains. The sooner she realizes this and comes to terms with her situation, the better off we will be.

I may not be perfect, but I am far more open minded than my companions. This existence is who we are now, but that does not mean we have to follow what is expected. Gabrielle and Randolph both seem to believe that there is potential within me...obviously, otherwise I would be no more than a human Consultant for a marketing company. I am still getting used to the way things are now, but I'm working at it. As for my future? I have plans....and while they may not take me to the top, they will still get me close enough to have real influence, and should anyone stand in my way...they will see why I was chosen.....they will know the extent of my mind...in more ways than one.

That reminds me...I should speak with Randolph and Gabrielle together sometime soon........I get the feeling that they are not telling me something.......